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"God did for me what I could not do for myself."

Before I was six years old, I found salvation in Christ, but childhood abuse, trauma sustained through legalistic religion, and an ongoing struggle with my sexual identity took a steep toll on my relationship with God. A wall of brokenness surrounded my life, encasing me within a fortress where depravity and darkness reigned.


But even as I struggled through decades of pain and searching, a scarlet cord tethered me to God, leading to one miraculous moment that would collapse the walled fortress that kept me from realizing His full purpose for my life.


Tracing my journey through darkness and back into the light of God’s never-ceasing love, this memoir showcases the redemptive power of the God who never lets his children go. Sensitively told, this story offers encouragement to those with family members or friends struggling with issues of sexual identity, by underscoring the power of divine possibility, the necessity of showing love to the broken, and the importance of relational, believing prayer.


This book is my “little epistle.” It is my story and my journey with the Lord. It is not meant to be prescriptive. My main mission is to encourage those with family or friends experiencing a sexual identity struggle to stand in the gap and march around the walls of Jericho. God promises He will finish the work He begins in His children. For those struggling, I want to provide a basis of hope that your name was on the cross and God saw you before time. Submission to His godly purpose for your life promises to yield the greatest freedom and joy this side of eternity.”

Cari Gintz divulges the abuse and trauma she experienced as a child. I admire her honesty and openness...I believe this book will bring liberation to others who have felt they needed to remain silent about what they endured as a child and the outcome of the sins committed against them.

Denise Shick - Author of My Daddy's Secret and founder of Help 4 Families

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